May 05, 2011

Figure drawing sessions... (26)






After a few weeks of a feeling of being lost, I'm starting to get back a little of my senses while drawing. It's terrible when we "loose it", and upon that, the fear that it might stay like that for long or maybe forever. Even though I really think that's how it works with this "art thing" - there are "ups and downs" and still stages. One must just accept it, live with it, and instead try to use the "lows" for doing other things to get inspired and stimulated again. 
Sometimes I get lost in my own questionings and doubts and even emptiness. Then everything seems to stop. This make me struggle against it, trying to get back to where I was. When it finally feels like I made my way back, I feel stronger than before, capable of taking new decision and in possession of new strengths and wills... 

8 comments:

Oljekritan said...

Nu skriver jag på svenska...tycker dina teckningar är otroligt bra...Kul att teckna nakenmodell...jättesnygga..själv har jag bara tecknat kvinnor..män är ju kantigare kan jag tro// karina

Helen Ström said...

Hej Karina, ja, jag tycker män har mera former, muskler och många gånger geometriska former som är intressanta. Det finns mera att rita tycker jag, deras kroppar ger mera frihet för en tecknare, tycker jag i alla fall. Man försöker ju uttrycka karaktären av den man tecknar och då har man ju också stor skillnad mellan män och kvinnor, jag tror mina teckningar av män är mer expressiva än dom av kvinnor. Jag kan bara rekommendera dig att prova när du får en chans! : )

agnes szucs said...

i can always get lost in your blog.
i admire your works, and i admire you for your hard work. but i guess i told you this before. i don't even got the guts to lift a pencil, and i don't know when i will (well, that's not true, because i design, but that's not the same). so till then, i admire you, and i dream.

i might be too pushy, but what if your ups and downs mean something like that you should start to be more abstract... my observation is that great masters become more and more abstract as they grow. they know everything, so why bother. so i guess they start looking for shapes, planes, patterns, interestingly distributed patches of color, whatever. (Think Degas.) I mean something like what you did in your last sketch of Chloé. but that might jut be my theory, and i'm no expert, and i don't mean to insult. just wanted to tell this.

wishing you all the best.
agnes
:)

Helen Ström said...

No Agnes, you are not pushy, just charing some good advice and thoughts. I thank you for this and your time.
Well, completely agree with you that any artist should go toward some kind of creative liberty where we brake all rules we might have learned until then. I hope I'll come to that stage soon, but I don't want to take an easy shortcut because I think I'll be loosing something if I do. I prefer work hard and loosen it slowly when I'm ready. In "the end" (even if "an end" might not exist in art) I hope to be creative and free to do expressive and personal paintings and drawings. I don't think I'll do completely abstract art, as I prefer figurative, but who knows my interest might develop into something new one day... (he he)
But, as I said, I agree I should liberate myself and if not at least my drawings!! (he he)

Helen Ström said...

Oh, I forgot Agnes, my "ups and downs" are more about a state when I don't feel in harmony or whole and I don't have the senses alert to draw. It feels a bit like some part of me is paralysed and I'm afraid it might be my brain... ho ho ho.

agnes szucs said...

Thanks for the answer, Helene. :)
I thought your ups and downs were artistic ones, that's why I suggested that. But now I got it. Otherwise I think too, that one shouldn't hurry such a more abstract art. I guess it will come when it has to and when you are ready. I understand you don't want to take a shortcut. And maybe it wouldn't be "you" just now.
...
Hopefully, it's not your brain at fault... I actually believe in something like Louise Bourgeois' "art is a guarantee for sanity". (Despite the fact that we've known a few great artists gone mad. :P)

Anyways, it's always good to see people like you, who think, and make art... (it's a sad thing what's going on today... i really can't understand it... neither contemporary art nor things like ARC.)

:)
agnes

Helen Ström said...

Yes, Agnès, I guess being an artist can drive some crazy or completely mad!
I feel better myself since I do this more seriously and it opens me up to what surrounds me, including other human beings. A friend of mine says I might be autistic! Not that I say that those who suffer from autism are mad, but after reading about the illness my conclusion is that maybe I could have a light disorder... (he he). Drawing have taught me to open up to other people and concentrating on what I do pulls me together, as I can express and concentrate on the things that interests me. Things that most of the time doesn't interest others. : )
For me it is a real change and a real improvement in my everyday life. I also feel happy, before I didn't, not this way not all the time like this. The conclusion is that art makes me sain. he he.
Well, this was kind of personal... : )

agnes szucs said...

Hey, Helen. :) It's very interesting what you say about autism, but regardless of whether you're slightly autistic or not, your story is very inspiring, and and I don't mind your being personal. on the contrary, I feel honored that you share these with me. :)
hugs,
agnes
:)