Just thought I should try out that piece of indian paper again and that I had laying on my desk since months. I'm not convinced of the result, but maybe if I get convinced of my goals in general I'll get somewhere. If I find ONE interesting square centimeter in this painting or another one it could make me keep working and aiming for a goal. I'm stuck! I got to get some work done, get motivated, inspired or recharged with energy and belief again. I got to get to do paintings and drawings from life regularly again as that's the only thing that motivates me; the experience of the sensations observations gives. Painting from pictures could never give those feelings. They can only give training... eventually... but not really either.