Still life XII...

Another study... 

When I think about it these studies,.. their meaning, or reasons to be painted, while they might not be revolutionary in any way... it's above all the act of painting whatever strikes me, and the feelings that it procures me that matters. To that we could ad the interest of painting what is ephemeral, and as most things are, including whatever state of emotions we are in, I just keep to what's around me at that moment. I try to make a portrait of the subject, it doesn't matter what it is. 

I hope to be able to develop intenser feelings with time and practice. And hopefully those will show in my paintings. The intenser they are, the more exiting life gets. I would like to awaken my senses to extract the most out of my everyday life, every moment, every act... or will it bring too much suffering then...? I don't think so, or if so, it should be worth it. 

Right now, I have a notion that I'm on the right way. I don't mean it shows in my work, but my sensibility is like growing inside me, and my feelings are overflowing lately.

Or, is this just some kind of state of well being that my mind produces? With the will to get "high", as often as possible...